My dad used to pick me up from school, on his way from office. Often I will be only one in the campus, a small child, as the sky darkened, bored with waiting. So, I would skip rope maniacally to beat the boredom. Then I used to cycle crazily. I was like that, needed the rush of movement to relieve me of the anxiety of being oversensitive. Everybody's pain was mine. Nowadays also, where I may seem as brusque, that is only a front. I still feel like a turtle without its cover. And my biggest problem spiritually and I hate this, is that I want to give everybody the right to think the way they do. That means I comply. Often, the person most hurt by this is, of course, I myself) Then, I turn brusque, and hope everybody runs off, so I did not have to think for them:) I do not do kickboxing for improving my yoga. I do it as a catharsis for this spiritual riddle that rides and tortures me. For me yoga is too meditative to give vent physically... I am flowing, not venting. In kickboxing I am reduced to being a student, my mind is divested of all illusions of myself as someone who understands the body. I founder, am awkward physically, I hurt a lot (body sore from trying hard), I find coordination difficult. I am once more a student... and I believe this how I remain humble as a teacher. Most yoga teachers have a halo, often strung around their head by themselves. I don't want to be anything remotely like those people... So I do kickboxing for all the wrong reasons, and none of it remotely to do with improving my yoga practice.
So, yes, I do kickboxing and some of my students think that may be why I can stretch and flex and do this or that. On the contrary, I have lost some poses to kickboxing. I am putting them down:
- Hand lock in the half-spinal twist.I used to be able to reach for my wrists, nowadays if my fingers touch each other it is a surprise to me. That is because the upper back is highly stressed from punching and stiffens.
- Standing Malasana. I could twist my hand around the knee from front and stand on one leg. Not anymore.
- Baddha padmasana. This is one pose whose loss I really mourn.. and I know I have to struggle all the way back to getting it, where my hand and toe are four to half foot away:(
- Padmasana .. I snapped my knee (same left one) twice over the last three years after starting this practice. Each time to the point where I thought it will never get back to normal:( And I thought I had lost my knee forever. So yes, my padmasana gives me trouble. And I cannot sit in it long without excruciating discomfort.
- All squats.
- Crow (yes, the wrists are sore after punching, so I really hurt when I go up in the basic crow!! Surprise suprise).
- Peacock. (Same reason as above).
- Wheel variations (Same reasons, but the shoulders crack up).